being 25 and still single has never put me in any awkward position, except when people who seems to 'care' about me asking the question ' bila nak kahwin?' 'bila nak kahwin?' and the question's repeated.
When some people find that kind of question give them stress, I think it's more or less makes me annoy. Annoy with the question and of course it comes in package together with annoy-with-the-person-who-asked-the-question.
Yes, they annoyed me.
But I don't and will never put the blame on them for asking me the bila-nak-kahwin-? question.
Going in a serious relationship for couple of years and then breaking up totally turned my world upside down.
Makan tak kenyang, tidur tak lena, mandi tetap basah.
It's just the same situation dengan those yang tengah angau. except that this time no bunga bunga feeling but a heartache.
ok, but it was just for few months la.
after that makan banyakkk je, kenyang pulak tu. tidur takde hal, siap mimpi kwon sang woo lagi ceh. mandi as usual, kalau rajin mandi kalau tak, hahhhhhhhh.
just it feels like forever for the heartache to fade away and for me to be able to move on.
It took me more than 1 year to finally be able to stand up strong once again in my life.
You see, it feels like i'm given a new life.
For the time being, I just want to enjoy this life that is given to me, doing things that I love.
I'm sure that marriage is not a thing for me to think about, at least for the next few years.
I realize that I'm still not ready for that.
But I don't know what's gonna happen la kan.
Kot kot bangun esok pagi tiba tiba rasa dah ready nak kawen. wallahualam.
I dont expect people to understand all this sebab I know only those yang pernah experienced break up in their life je yang faham.
But I do hope that they can ask less 'Bila-nak-kahwin?' question, like seriously. kalau tak payah tanya lagi bagus.
sebab soal jodoh bukan dalam bidang kuasa kita nak menentukan.
orang yang dah lama couple kalau jodoh tak sampai lagi pun takkan kahwin. ramai je yang macam tu kan.
the best thing is, doakan jodoh yang baik baik untuk kami semua ni.
doakan bila jodoh tu sampai, moga berkekalan sampai syurga.